to be happy now

i can't believe i'm already two weeks into the semester. time flies when you're... okay so i'm not having fun getting up at seven in the morning per se... but whatevs. time has flown and that's a fact. i'm feeling pretty confident about this semester and the somewhat destructive sleep schedule really isn't too bad. classes seem to be going alright so far and i absolutely love my philosophy professor. this is probably the first time in my life that i've felt genuine excitement about going to class, and disappointment when the hour and fifteen minutes are up. i'm also appreciating the fact that the majority of my homework is merely reading. yes, it's close to three hours ever night, but at least i'm not pumping out differential equations. but enough about classes. here's a laundry list of other things that have been going on in my life:

i'm graduating a semester early, so december '11, here i come. [who wants to hire me? no seriously.] lucky for me, i transferred in enough credits from highschool as to where i'm plenty ahead. SCORE. get me the fuck outta here as soon as possible please and thanks.

the internship with building rome has been going pretty well, and i scored my first big interview just the other day.

i've rediscovered my love for reading, and i've been eating lots of fruits and vegetables because i WANT to. [perhaps a sign of maturity?]

speaking of reading, i have begun the colossal task of wading through atlas shrugged. and although it's bringing up more questions than answers right now, and has left me in a slight state of psychological distress, i'm trying to work on that virtue called patience and just keep at it.

there have also been numerous musically inclined freak-outs over the past few days. one - the cavashawn/state and madison/the heyday show was finally confirmed in st. louis. two - good old war is opening for circa survive. three - i actually have a show buddy for said circa show in st. louis. four - i have discovered strikegently.com. five - building rome nabbed the opening spot for the story of the year cd release show.

//end list. and although that's a fairly positive list and classes are indeed going well, there's still that anxiety that comes creeping back into my head when everything in life gets going again. i stress over ridiculous things, overanalyze to the point of insanity, make mental lists and check them over and over and over, can't fall asleep because of all of the above, and in general get pretty crazy. BUT. i'm working on it. and hopefully i will get better at it.