a fresh start

never in my life did i think i would leave my precious xanga. we've been through a lot in the past three and a half years. for the most part, xanga holds my high school memories. but time keeps on and i've been living in the past. i'm in college now and and am well overdue for a new blog. what better time to start, than with the new year? so here i am; starting fresh with a brand new site in a brand new year.

this past year has probably been the hardest of my life. the death of my mom was constantly on my mind, and it's something i will have to deal with for the rest of my life. it was a difficult adjustment, continuing to live my life without my mom at my side. i never realized i had such a poor relationship with my dad until her death. but in good news, i can say our relationship has improved this past year. i also graduated high school, a huge relief and weight off my shoulders. with the end of highschool came the big decision - college. i chose Mizzou - close enough to come home on the weekends; far enough to feel independent. with the end of highschool also came some drastic changes. i lost some very close friends, but gained new ones as well. this summer was definitely a learning experience for me, and helped me to focus in on some of the morals that i now consider very important and hold close to my heart. summertime also introduced me to (in a literal sense) a lot of friends i had met through concerts and the internet. i can proudly say that some of these people are now considered close friends in which i confide in regularly. although i have met some of them only a few times, they are still very important to me. the summer all too quickly came to an end and i threw myself into college not knowing what to expect in the least. long story short, first semester was a trip to hell and back. but it has been a huge learning experience for me and although i can't say i'm exactly looking forward to second semster, i know i have a lot to learn. i hope to continue searching for that perfect career path, and i'm hoping it will be in the music industry, through one way or another. i have a passion for music like you wouldn't believe and i have a little furnace burning in my heart that i am confident will get me where i'm supposed to be.

so that was 2008. here's to 2009. i'm anxious to see what it has in store for me; and i'm excited to share all the up's and down's of it right here.